the road diverged, and i took the one less taken

And the next thing I know I'm in the garden of flowers and sunshine. Of mists and rainbows. Of butterflies and bunnies.
And I know I had finally found the true happiness. The real peace. The pure bliss.
Nothing could replace that. Ever.


This is the thing I've been wanting to tell. The real biggest discovery in my life so far.
I've never thought I would find this, and I could fall in love with this thing.
Because looking back at how I was before, I was really far from doing this kind of job.
I knew long before that this thing exists. But never actually take notice of what it is really about. Or why does it have to exist at all.

But when Im really in the 'thing', I realized I've been lost all the way.
I've been lying to myself of things so obvious.
I've been avoiding myself from exposing the truth.
I've been hiding too much out of fear.
Of commitments, of expectations and of losing things I loved doing.


Oh wait wait. What is this Farhana? What are you trying to point out, actually? -.-'


Well, let me be frank.
I've actually found a circle. :)

A circle.

Not the ordinary circle of friends. Or circle of clique. Or even dark eyes circle. -.-'
It's the circle that builds and grows. Circle that triggers and transforms. Circle that open your eyes and soften you hearts.

I used to call this ridiculous. I used to call this nonsense. And even conservative.
But when this thing could change your mindset drastically, you know its powerful.
There's something inside it that make it alive. And it IS alive.

When your soul is alive, you get a clear picture of your purpose of existence.
You know your role and you know where it could bring you.
You feel lighter knowing you are not alone. You feel more spirited knowing as you go, you are tagging along something so pure and big. You dream is bigger and your sight is broader.

And you know your heart is well protected.


What else could I say to express how big this circle means to me?


Sorry I left you hanging. Hehe.

Its Usrah. Or tarbiyyah. :)
Both brings the same concept. Of building you towards a better you. And aiming nothing but to bring the beauty of Islam back to where it should be. :)

I found this usrah when I got into IBT. I started with zero knowledge, and slowly my heart opened up. Alhamdulillah. And since then I tell myself this is what I'll be working out for. This is what my life is all about. This is why I exist and still breathing on earth.

Knowing Allah is there for you all the time is the most precious gift ever. You depends on nothing but Him. You thank nobody but Him. You cry for nothing else but Him.

And even when hardship comes your way, you know you have Him. You know that even the hardship comes from Him, and there is a reason behind that. And you know that He did that because He loves you and wants you to be strong.


Having a so mighty power to cling on every single second, good or bad, happy or sad, is a blessing more than enough to keep my faith on Him.

But for me to stick with usrah, there's a lot more reason other than that. It will take a real long post just for it. And it will probably never end. Trust me. xD


Because the sweetness of living within the way of life I've just found is beyond words. :')


And I really thank Allah for letting me have the opportunity to know and meet usrah, at the age of 19 where there's still plenty time to think, decide and change. I really thank Allah for having me in IBT, as if I was at other places, I would probably not having the chance to even know this at all. I really thank Allah for accepting me and guiding me, throughout all the suffers and difficulty I faced.

It feels good when you whine and sob and know God is there for you, to hear you and will direct you out of the gloom, somehow. And there would be no room for blame, towards Allah or your fate, when you devote all your life and every single thing on Him.


And all your works are for nothing but Him. :')


But I know I'm still bertatih. I'm still so naive. I'm still so unripe. I'm a freshie and there's still too much to learn.
But Im striving, and I'm working towards it. InsyaAllah.♥



I believe Allah helps those helping towards Him. :)

“Islam telah bermula dengan dagang dan ia akan kembali dagang, maka berbahagialah mereka bersama Islam di waktu ia dagang.”
- Hadith Riwayat Muslim

Yeah, Islam has become something so bizarre and odd nowadays. Even the name Islam had been stained and contaminated by so many speculations people not even sure about. But try knowing the pure and genuine Islam, the one brought by Rasulullah and maybe you will fall in love too like how I did. ;)

You choose your life. :)
And Im glad Im in the group that brings the bizarre thing. xD

Well, pray the best for me. May Allah bless. ♥

the end of the chapter

Hello peeps!

Last post was during hari raya. And that was, hmm, 4 months back?

Im sorry I neglected you, bloggie. But trust me, if I were to write during that period you would probably see no more than some lists of depressing heart pour posts, knowing how tense I could be and how emo my posts are when exam comes near. -.-‘

So are you not happy I choose to write now, when everything’s settled and im so carefree? xD

Yes. Everything’s settled.
And there’s nothing else I could say to express my gratitude to God.

Alhamdulillah. Only You I could rely upon. :')

Last four months had been very hectic (read: super duper giler hectic). Now let me tell you why.

The exam fever.

Fifth and last periodical exam [定期試験]. Japanese Language Proficiency Test N1 - JLPT [日本語能力試験]. The Examination for Japanese University Admission for International Students - EJU [日本留学試験]. Finalization Exam for JPA students [修了試験].

All squeezed into 2 months or so. The tense was needless to say. IT WAS A REAL PAINFUL MOMENT. But lucky me I have him to keep me company. ♥ :)

See the happy faces? :D
Obviously not during the exam. Ini time register je. No wonder lah kan. -.-'

Happy faces again! ;D
Because exam was over and we managed to hentam all! Oh yeah -.-'


-no much pics.-
Its exam period, u see. Mana ada mood, and kalau ada pun wajah sangat lah bengis tahap singa sembelit.
Cheh.




Its holi-holi-day!

In between exams yang super duper pack tu ada je holiday sebenarnya. :) 1 or 2 weeks every after one exam lebih kurang. And yeah I know it should be my chance to study for the coming exam lah kan, tapi hehehehe.

Tadaaaa :D

Eagle Land - Langkawi!

Rumah Cik Puan Mahsuri.

Spot the niji (虹) / rainbow! :D

The dream is sky high. And we need your help to flap our wings. ;)

Cat City - Kuching!

Indonesian border market

Taman Kebudayaan Gunung Santubung.

Congratulation! Moga berkekalan sampai syurga. InsyaAllah~ ♥ :)


The Heritage Town - Taiping!

Shahira and her new-found bestie. Meet the orangutan!　
そっくりじゃん~ hehe



The End of the Beginning

So now the exam is over! ;D
Among other things we did before we graduate;

Created nonsense haigu 俳句 (Japanese poem)
Mine was the top far right. Translate: the clouds on the sky, so soft, so sheepish.
LOL that was just so bare and childish. T.T


Beautifully wrote our kanji of the new year 2012 in calligraphy! Its so beautiful I wanna cry. :')
Note; mine was on the very top, second from left, and it means そら (sky) okay, not からっぽ (empty).
Kanji could really make so much confusion -.-'


Acted like senseis and the blackboard was ours! We are creative and we know it. :')


We are flying without wings~ ♪♫
-rooftop of IBT- ;)


Last bus ride to IBT. :'(


Last class with Okumiya Sensei.
Notice the blackboard? He was actually learning bahasa Melayu with us on our last lesson. Awwhh~ xD


EJU WAS OVER. AND SO DID IBT! The sweats and tears of 21 months finally meet an end. Oh thank God. Alhamdulillah.

And it ended with tears too. :’)

f26a - class of 2010-2011! ♥

Housemates of a42! ♥

Lambang kasih sayang. Hehe :')


Its a legacy to organise a party every after graduation, aint it? :D

Okumoto sensei ♥


Homemade bihun goreng. Made with much love and affection. ;)


Awh heaveeen.


*salivate*

Kopek Durian Contest for sensei! :D

And the winner goes to....
Kimura Sensei! Oh yeah xD


西井先生、内村先生、村中先生、近藤先生、奥本先生、八巻先生、清宮先生、他の先生方。♥
来て下さってありがとうございました！(^o^)/
２１か月も大変お世話になりました！


Love IBT forever ♥



The dupdapdupdap Part.

The JPA held a meeting to decide whether we, the scholars, get to fly to Japan or will be kicked out. *ouch*
And the result was announced last friday. その恐ろしいといえば。。。 x(

When the result was going to be announced, everyone was shaking. Yes, shaking, literally. Well, it was pouring real hard outside and half of us were already wet from head to toe anyway, from walking in the rain all the way from Mid Valley to IBT. -.-' So I guess its not an exaggeration. ;p
But our hearts never stop praying. Hands gripping. The air felt thin and I swear I was gasping for air. Its the result that decides our future. The result that tells that all our tears and effort for the last 21 months worth something in the end. The result we've been striving hard and stretching out for. The final, ultimate result.


Yeah ok I admit life does not actually ends there. Even if I didn't get to go to Japan I've already prepared myself to accept it wholeheartedly, and believe God knows best. There must be other local unis to apply for, and other courses to dive in. And why, the road of Jihad could be in any form and any direction as long as it aims for the right thing, right? :)

But easier said than done. To gain that strength would require super strong faith. And to allow others to accept the same way is another thing. It's never easy. And a chance like this doesn't easily roll down your lifepath. What about the sacrifices and hardwork? The hopes and expectations?

So yeah, I could say I really put so much hope on this. VERY much.



And.



And Alhamdulillah. The whole batch was granted with a chance to study abroad in Japan. Officially.
Hoorraayh! :D
Now its just time to wait which uni will accept us. That will be in February :)



Before/After

The paranoid feeling vs. the over the moon feeling. xD



Alhamdulillah. Only Your Will could grant. :')



So we crazed and skipped and jumped around looking for the next silly things to do! What else could you expect from girls freshly broke from the jail of IBT? ;p

We found a red bear.

Hugged a white bear.


And made a lifetime personal challenge to perform in public. Woohoo!
But oh, don't be mistaken. I was only the photographer LOL.

The two main characters, and two penyibuk one. xD


And we burabura ALOT.


This is a form of burabura too. But we call this rehlah. And I would really love doing this again! ♥ xD


Oh my. My back aches already.
So I guess I will have to stop now.
Bye bloggie. Don't miss me and please behave.
For this 2 months I will try to update and not let you collect dusts too much xD




AsSalam ♥

PS: There are things I really want to tell. And its about a real big leap in my life. But maybe next post. ;p

kesedaran terserlah

Ramadhan tahun ni saya suka. Tak hectic tapi tak kosong. Ala-ala kuih tat nenas gitu. Simple je, tapi isi dia manis. Tak macam kuih keria. Manis tapi kosong di tengah. Haha perumpamaan yang tak kena langsung kthxbye.

Syawal tahun ni pun saya suka. Hectic dan penuh gitu. Banyak suspends banyak surprises. Boleh kata macam kuih Almond London. Sedap memang sedap tapi kadang-kadang sakit gigi gigit kacang.


Cuma part tengahtengah antara Ramadhan dan Syawal tu ada benda tak jangka. Dah plan nak balik Ahad petang, then tangguh lepas buka, then lepas tarawih, then lepas football match baru nak bertolak. Masa ManU dah strike 4-1(eh eh terbold ;p) abah & along dah senyum sampai telinga, maka bolehlah semua bertolak dengan tenang dan ceria, termasuk saya walaupun tak watch pun match tu tapi nak join sengih jugak hikhik. Time bertolak pukul 1 a.m gitu, kereta macam tak betul padahal along dah hantar service yang sampai kena bayar 4figures okay, tapi jalan macam bawak lori 10 tayar. =.=' Sekali bila sampai Senawang, da start bau hangit so abah stop dekat perhentian tapi tak jumpa apa-apa yang pelik pada Mr.Estima, so teruskan lah jalan. Tak lama lepas tu, Mr.Estima dah jadi kereta kuda sakit. Semua orang dah cuak macam first time naik kereta kuda, terhenjut-henjut atas jalan. Bayangkanlah tengah speed sederhana laju tengah malam kat lane tengah highway yang banyak giler kereta lain speed, tiba-tiba kereta macam tak makan minyak and kena slow-slow ke tepi. Kesian abah, cuak muka abah. Hujan lak tu. Bau hangit lagi. Fuh macam Fast & Furious pun ada (takde kena mengena). Lalu kami terpaksa berhenti di tepi jalan kilometer 243.6 menghala Johor. Number ni tak tipu ye sebab tanda km tu betulbetul depan kereta masa stop. -.-'

Memandangkan abah dah cuak, mak apatah lagi, dan Shahira pula nyenyak dibuai mimpi maka saya and along berlagak hero turun tengah malam redah hujan nak cari rescue. Sakit hati sikit bila call Telekom untuk dapatkan number Plus Highway sebab robot yang jawab tu punyelah lembab. 'Terima kasih kerana menggunakan talian khidmat Telekom. Talian ini akan dicaj bla bla bla dan perbualan ini mungkin akan direkod bla bla bla bla bla untuk meningkatkan bla bla bla.' Macam, come on, we are in hurry and we need help lah. Takpayah bebel panjang bole? -.-'

Nasib baik tak payah tunggu lama sangat sebab lori tolak sampai dalam half hour lepas tu. And Mr.Tow Truck pun sangatlah happening dengan lampu bagai. Taulah nak raya. Tak semena-mena festive mood tu datang balik kat kitorang. :')


Mr.Tow Truck yang kacak and happening. :')

So malam tu terpaksa pergi Seremban and menumpang di sana. Nasib baik kawan abah pakcik Lingam ada and dengan baik hatinya pandu tengah malam tu ke highway and ambil kitorang ke Seremban sebab kereta kena tarik. Then teman abah lagi patah balik Kajang untuk ambil kereta lain. Sobsobs tq pakcik. Jasamu dikenang. :')

Syukur Alhamdulillah takde pape jadi masa tu. Haa baru tahu apa rasa duduk tepi highway dalam hujan dan macam nak terpelanting je bila lori speed kat sebelah. Masa tu tawakal je lah menjadi teman. Macam mana pun kita cuma merancang, Allah yang tentukan, kan? ;) And nasib baik juga lepas tu dapat tau ManU menang 8-2 (ops terbold lagi xD) maka perjalanan balik makinlah terasa happy. Hikhik. :D

So apa yang surprise sangat raya ni?

First Raya;
Yang paling bahagia: makan banyak giler. Setiap rumah ketupat and ayam sambal were a must.
Yang paling surprise: dapat tahu cuti seminggu je. Bukan dua minggu ye. Entah macam mana selama ini ingat cuti 2 minggu tapi rupanya selama tu jugalah saya duduk dalam angan-angan rupanya. So shukudai tak siap pape masa tu like wth. Berkecai harapan kot. Macam taknak caya je cuti seminggu. -.-'

Second Raya;
Yang paling bahagia: beraya jauh sampai Mersing and sempat jumpa ramai saudara.
Yang paling surprise: sakit perut sebab first raya dah makan over-over. Tak pernah dalam hidup sakit perut sebab makan banyak sangat kot. Kan dah padan muka, second day terus tak boleh makan langsung. Tragic gile. -.-'

Third Raya;
Yang paling bahagia: duit raya bertambah. $.$
Yang paling surprise: balik Kajang and shukudai yang bertimbun mula kelihatan dan menjadi nightmare. Baru sedar banyak rupanya shukudai. Untuk daftar Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT) lagi. Untuk essay 希望 lagi. Untuk 定期試験 lagi. 新しい言葉　lagi. Semua gara-gara ingat cuti 2 minggu. Waaaa~ -.-'





Lucky thing dapat jumpe mamat comel di atas sebelum balik. Sejuk sikit hati yang panas. :'> Macam nak culik bawak IBT. ♥


Ok nak pergi marathon shukudai.
*sprint ke arah timbunan shukudai*


footNOTE: tak sempat pergi open house rumah Umairah sebab ingat semalam nak balik IBT, tapi sampai la ni terceruk kat rumah lagi rupanya. Hwaa kalau tahu semalam dah pergi rumah Umairah. *nangis gulingguling*

triple wishes

You know you've got something way more important to do.

Like washing the dishes, clearing the dinner, packing for 4 days raya holiday, or just taking a bath.

But you just plain lazy you sit in front of your laptop, stare at the Facebook homepage, abuse the home button, listen to songs you usually don't listen, Google random search, stalk random people, read random article, see random pictures, explore random websites, adore random guys and repeat the same things till you hurt your butt.

And somehow you enjoy doing it, as long as it's not something you GOTTA do.
That's exactly what i'm doing. Wee~ ;p

But only by imagining living this routine for the next 2 weeks holiday already gives me nausea.




I think i need a self-help psychologist. -.-'

宿題は普通のように鞄にも入れられないほどおおすぎるんだ。Fifth semester exam (定期試験）will be in September. Wait, isn't that next month? *shivers*

Lucky thing i only have the holiday homework without the daily も one; I managed to finish it up during our stay in IBT until 10pm last Friday.YAY! x)

We were actually warned 2 weeks earlier to pass up all homeworks until OK by 26th August. But the whole class was kept for detention class after school that day because it seems that nobody managed to complete it all by 6pm. Imagine how much homeworks we had. -.-' But it turned out not so bad afterall. We had our first and last iftar this year, and we all shared the shukudai-sprint mood that night with the senseis. It really felt like a family and now Im actually hoping for another detention class next time, hehe. :')


Anyway, the only-for-holiday shukudais are not exactly that relieving. 4 thick paperworks and researches to be done. Revision for Teiki and Eju and Shuuryou shiken. Dilemma between doing the do's and give up on my crave for food and raya and internet, or the opposite things. Lets gambare and make sure the latter don't happen this time. :)


I pray for a safe balik kampung/holiday journey for all.
Maaf zahir and please accept my apology from the deepest corner of my heart *cheewah* for any of my wrongdoings, intentionally or not.
Happy Holiday. Happy Merdeka. Happy Syawal. ♥


footNOTE: I know im forgetful. I wished all my BFFs' birthdays late. Im so ヒドイ　i know. So sorry girls. I'll try better next year. :'(

lets come CLEAN

Hey blog yang berhabuk. Lama tak jenguk. Bukan taknak, bukan tak suke. Tapi sebab takde masa, and takde internet. Tapi bagus juga, atleast boleh lah concentrate study. Eventho study pun tak macam study, haha. Ok ada nada kecewa kat situ ye. :|

Banyak nak cerita sebenarnya.
Cerita IBT and test haritu yang kena resit, or dgn kata lain, tak pass ye terima kasih banyakbanyak,
Cerita Bon Odori yang tak berapa menarik sebab macam terkinja waktu Maghrib pada malam Nisfu Syaaban,
Cerita Undoukai yang lepas tu kena pindah bilik walaupun da siap buat drama depan sensei taknak pindah atas sebabsebab tertentu,
& juga cerita cerita selainnyalah.
Pendek kata, cerita kedai kopi, kedai mamak, warung melayu, gerai apek semua ada.
Eh 1 Malaysia lah. :D

Kalau nak cerita pasal 1 Malaysia lagi lah tak habis. Sebab kalau nak tau dari surface, macam-macam yang our beloved PM dah gempar gempurkan. :)
Tapi, what's hiding behind and what we as rakyat see is a different thing all together.

Malas nak ulas. Tu baru sikit.

Kalau cerita panjang akan dicop berhaluan.
Just nak cakap, govn should aware that we, rakyat, judge by what we see. We can think and we have our views. You can't fool everyone, mister.

Kalau demokrasi buat lah gaya demokrasi.


Okeh tu je. Nak jenguk shukudai 社会 pulak. Hee.
Bye.♥

footNOTE: Doakan moga pass exam lepas ni, and Happy Ramadhan everyone ♥ ;)

EJU bulan june.

Finally, a new post! :D
And like so obviously, as I only blog during my break, I know you know that im having my break now. For a week. =.= Yeah I know its short but its way better than never, no? it’s been awhile since my last only-1-bloody-week-holiday and I really need this break so much. Think IBT, think pressure. Lol. Not funneh. it’s a fact.

Just look how much shukudais i've got from IBT. THAT, is the shukudai for a week holiday.
Enjoyable much, eh?

Anyway, sekarang tengah penat. Penat dengan ibt. Heh. And on top of that, hari ahad haritu pergi lari ekiden run! :D Haha pergi announce kat sini macamlah menang first. Oklah tak menang. In fact dapat yang last dalam ibt. Nasib baik ade Juju, jadi kawan lari same-same, hee. Tapi takpe, sebab 目標 pun memang nak habiskan larian je. Tak terfikir langsung top 10 ape. Paling best, nama group kitorang ‘Jalan-jalan’! xD Alhamdulillah semua berjaya tamatkan larian & takde sakit-sakit, minus sakit kaki ye tu memang semua kena. Memang terharu giler ok bila nak sampai penamat tu tengok dak lain sorak-sorak. Sebab jadi fifth/last runner, masa lari tu terasa macam wakil negara pun ada. Ceewah gitu. :’) Padahal paling last dalam IBT. Patutlah semua da ade kat tepi dah mase tu. Patutlah sorakan kuat giler. Oh patutlaaaah. -.-‘

Tapi yang penting sekali, semangat & sokongan korang sangat terkesan di hati. And sangat lah happy sebab tak sangka dapat gak num tengah-tengah dlm 50++ group for women open. Thank you korang, without the effort of every single one of you, tak mungkin kita dapat complete larian ni. Sobsobs wuu terjiwang. Hee :’)

Ni group yang menang ke apetah. Woot woot congrats! :D

Hokhok. Ok next. ;p

And petang tu, lepas penat-penat bole pulak Anis ajak movie. Last-last balik tu memang sakit satu badan.

Kaki sakit ekiden 3km pagi tu. Tengah panas. Woooo mantap.
Tangan sakit main drum kat archade. Terus level high pulak tu tak bole blah. ==’
Tengkuk sakit tengok Priest. Dapat the very front seat. Dongak the whole 2hrs kot. Banyak lak tu sampai terjerit jerit. Me and Nad jadi penambah sound effect tak bertauliah kat situ LOL.
Perut sakit sumbat one set Kenny Rodgers lepas lahap 1 regular popcorn setiap sorang.
Pipi sakit tak tahan gelak ngn Nad & Anis. Dua2 otak gile. Kepala pun jadi gile. HOHO -___-‘

Memang setiap anggota ter-exercise sekali. Lantaklah, asalkan dapat lupakan ibt seketika.
Ahahaha tapi tak terlupa pun hahahaha ibt melekat di hati hahahahah malang sungguh hahahaha.

Muka budak-budak letih tapi degil tanak balik sebab sibuk cari mangsa nak amik gamba jugak 5 orang. xD

Speaking of IBT, haritu kitorang telah dipaksa pergi orientation kat Banting! It was 2 weeks back actually. And yang syoknye dia buat hari weekend Sabtu Ahad, and sekolah macam biasa the next Monday. HOW BRILLIANT WAS THAT. =.= Ini prog under JPA so takpelah kitorang pergi je.*muka pasrah* And worth it la actually. We had fun, sang song yang sangat mengharukan dan seperti biasa ada drama lepas kena psyco. Bayangkanlah lagu Hampir Ke Situ kena nyanyi setiap kali masuk module baru. Dah lah lagu tu memang kena gile dgn situation kitorang.

Moga apa jua akhirnya, kita terus bersama ek. Insya Allah. Sobsobs :’)

Group Maigo! 迷子！
Translate: budak sesat. xD

Petang tu sempat pujuk pakcik bus nak turun kat Pantai Morib, hehe. Dalam half an hour je tibatiba da jadi promoter peniup buih seperti di atas, menggoda kanak-kanak lain beli gak. Wahah, beruntung abang jual peniup buih ade pelanggan seperti kami kan. ;')

Suke! ♥

Walaupun wajah Yan terinterprem kat bawah. Sebok ahh xD

Tetiba teringat trip Tg. Bidara.
Hee rindu! Lagi-lagi dengan budak kecik anak owner chalet dua orang tu HAHAHA ok tipu tak rindu. xD

&& semalam! Pagi tu kemas rumah, then masa mak ambil nak balik Kajang, ternampak sign tepi jalan TESCO, KINI DIBUKA. Kitorang macam, ehh? bukan tengah buat lagi ke? Tapi da ade sign macam tu waaaa ape lagi, terus serbu. And rupa-rupanya Tesco yang tengah buat kat Jalan Kelang Lama tu memang still under construction kat tingkat atas, tapi Tesco kat bawah da mula operate, AND DAH 3 MINGGU DAH PUN ADOYAI KENAPA RASA MACAM KATAK BAWAH TEMPURUNG? =='

Wajah duta baru Tesco yang telah di banned oleh Tesco sendiri sebab takut makin tak laku. Ngahah :D

Ok lah lepas ni bole shopping kat Tesco. Kad Tesco pun dah buat *gile semangat* macam lah barang Tesco murah sangat. Tapi yela, nak bandingkan dengan SriKot or Jusco & Carrefour kat Mid tuu. -.-



And ohhhhhh neway, F26, batch kitorang dah 1 year! :D
Wooot woooot ;D

Dah setahun bersama, menempuh suka duka *ni macam nak jiwang balik je hoho*
Sayang korang banyakbanyak! ♥ :'3

And sekarang rumah dah pun berubah sikit. Living with kouhai for the moment. Kouhai, Syafinaz nama diberi, sangatlah sempoi. Haha. ;D Bilik belakang yang kosong dah jadikan bilik study hehehe konon nak dapat mood study tapi apehal tah tak study-study gak. Sengal.

Kindly ignore messiness please. ;p

And hari Khamis ni da plan nak keluar dgn Convent girls! Yay cant wait! ♥ xD

Oklah sekarang nak ucap hello kat shukudai yang banyak tu. Ucap je kot. Buat ntah bile. Woi Farhana EJU bulan June ok. Or say, in 2 weeks? Damn. Sekarang baru terasa cuak.


Bye blog. Hello shukudai :)

FootNOTE; Happy Birthday AZZIELAH & SAMILA! ♥ Already 19! :D and sorry for the belated wish. Hee ;p

And oh, Selamat Pengantin Baru kepada semua yang dah berkahwin! Hee. Banyak kenduri yang termiss. Banyak nasi minyak tak sempat merasa. :( Takpe takpe, doa dipanjatkan dari jauh, moga berkekalan sampai anak cucu ye. Amin ♥ :)

Its Friday

Oh its Rebecca Black 'Friday' phenomenon.

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Rebecca Black's "Friday:" Justifiably the Laughing Stock of America


Duhhh.

C'mon people, stop criticizing her. I don't understand why people keep condemning her like shit. People who said 'rebecca go die' should go die himself. I'm sorry i sound harsh but thats just too much. Please keep in mind she is just a 13 year old girl with a dream, and when she was offered to record a song by Ark Music factory, i guess she must be over the moon. What she didn't know is that company is gonna give her a crap song like err well, that Friday song, for her to sing. And i dont think that company is trying to make big money out of her anyway, they just helping her to achieve her dream, in a small way, or less budget. And when it was released, who would have thought it would become this big?

I know the song and lyrics are horrible. And the video worsened it even more. Some even claim that her voice is the worst they ever heard that they turned deaf just by listening to it. Frankly speaking, i don't think its that bad. You guys are plainly exaggerating. Two words: fitting in. You heard your friends say 'hey heard that rebecca black? she *bla bla bla insert bitching here*' and then you surf the net, find the video, add to that bitching and tadaa you got what we have here now. You were just going with the flow, see?

I'm not asking you to support her or to be her big fan or something. Even I am not her fan, but im just against all this hating. 'Go cut yourself', 'your voice makes me puke', 'she is a fat duck' thats just too much. C'mon, take a look at yourself, do you even have the guts and determination to record a song, or do whatever it takes to get to your dream at the age of 13? Heh. No, very few did that, trust me.

If you want to support her effort, do it the right way. If not, let her be. Don't be such a bitch yourself.

But thanks to you haters, she got 50 million views in a week, almost 90 millions views until today, and way popular than you now.

People nowadays cant get enough of Lady Gaga and Justin Bieber; they are to be worshiped.
They now have Rebecca Black; she is here to be critiqued and hated.

Stop being so high school, and come back to reality, will ya? I've had enough of dramas already. Oh anyway, Im not pasting her video here. You gonna bitch here on my blog, and i hate that.

Wish you a Happy Friday. :)

ps: everyone still cant get over high school, it seems. Oh im so not alone. :')

lil confession

Macam baru perasan.
Entah macam mana,

I still can't get over high school.



Dak convent, sila terharu sekarang. Hoho.

Maybe sebab pagi tadi dapat berita Cik Azizah, guru sesi petang Convent, meninggal dunia. Dengar arwah meninggal sebab cancer. Ya Allah, memang terkejut sangat. Walaupun beliau tak pernah ajar saya dulu, tapi still, beliau guru pandu puteri dan selalu conduct program. Macam mana pun, beliau tetap guru saya.
Al-Fatihah buat beliau, semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dalam golongan orang beriman.
You'll be missed. :'(

Dan serentak itu juga (ayat macam tak boleh blah) macam-macam kenangan kat Convent dulu datang balik. Dah lah semalam pergi singgah sekejap kat sana nak ambil Shahira. Masa tu tengok Convent 'eh, dah lain? Dekat sidewalk depan sekolah dah ada bumbung lah! Whoaaa' :O sambil buat muka jakun tahap gaban.
Hmmm nampak sangat dah lama gila tak jejak sekolah. Paling pedih bila mak yang tengah drive kata 'Eh da lama la tuu. Haa tu la contoh kacang lupakan kulit'.
Ohoho tajam menusuk kot. T.T
Tapi semalam pun tak sempat masuk pun, sebab nak ambil Shahira je. :(
Takpe takpe tunggu budak matrix habis sem, kitorang serbu convent ramai-ramai eh? Hee ;D

And dari situlah teringat betapa bahagianya kat highschool dulu. Teringat how we used to stay back and walk around Kajang Town aimlessly just to kill the time, macam mana rush nya kitorang sampai skip lunch bila nak pergi tuition petang, betapa syoknya belajar dalam kelas walaupun masa tu pun kerja tidur je.


Bahagianyaaaaa :')



Takpelah, semua tu dah jadi kenangan sekarang. And akan kekal sebagai antara kenangan paling best dalam hidup. Hee ;')


Ok nak pergi makan aiskrim.
♥


ps: Senpais, have a safe flight (TT 3 TT)/"

'fine' is undefined

Had you been across a situation where there are things you wanted to say out for so long, but theres simply something holding you from doing so?
You know its never a harm to tell, but somehow you don't have the gut to say?
Oh does it feel bad. Bad to yourself as you know it, and bad to the other person involved too. And finally you just let it go, saying 'its nothing' with a lil smile just to assure that person that everything is fine. Everything in the world is going so fine.

But no its not fine. Its not fine when you cant stand yourself being so obedient, so forgiving, so patient. And obviously its not a good thing you loathe yourself being so positive.
Because what good do being optimistic brings when your own feelings gets dumped?
You push away your emotions for the sake of your optimistic belief you trust so well, neglecting whatever your heart tells, following whatever your brain commands, in every single action, judgement and acceptance on life.
And at the peak of the worse, you actually force yourself to cry. Lame? Yeah.

So much of being optimistic.

***

Now lemme shout H to the O to the L to the I to the D to the A to the Y! :D

That spells HOLIDAY. And i make it colourful just to get the holiday feeling, hee. But yeah as usual my HOLIDAY involves restless days with bucks of shukudais and more sighs. *Sighhh* Typical typical typical farhanas' holiday. Or i'd rather call that ibts' holiday. -___-'

And to make it more interesting i now have this list which i call To-Do-List. Wow sounds fun? Nope, it doesn't, actually. ;p

Here how it goes;

- shukudai
- shopping [food, daily use, stationery, more fooood]
- movies [dyba! ♥ :D ]
- 2 japanese dramas, borrowed from ibt, to be returned next monday
- learn a new song for piano
- clean room
- learn cooking
- bake a cake
- finish those unfinished books/novels
- update on latest songs, movies, drama, tv series


Yup i know the last one sounds the lamest, but being an ibt-ians means locking yourself out of the world to date with books and kanji all long. Oh, maybe its just me, as i dont own a broadband, nor do i receive any kindness from pakcik jalal to use his wifi for free from my room. *kecewa.=.='
So yeah, you can call me a qualified katak now. I bet fion will be proud with this. xD

Anyway, only one of those on the list had be accomplished. Obviously, the struck one. Another good thing is, im already half way through my holiday.


Ohoho life is good. ♥


Ps: al-Fatihah to arwah mak long. Semoga dicucuri rahmat dan sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah. Ana rindu maklong :'(

pss: i noticed my recent posts tend to sound bitter. And pathetic. Ohh well. -.-'

satu jam untuk bumi

Im proud i've done something, even it's as little as switching the light off. :)

Happy Earth Hour, people. ;)

ps: menyampah kat nyamuk. Baru nak menikmati alam malam dia dah kacau mood earth hour. Pffft -___-'